Are you my coworker or boss, and you figured out who I am?
Please don’t fire me.
Please know I am doing the best I can. I have a serious and sometimes debilitating mental illness.
I would love to share my diagnosis with you. I think it would help explain how sometimes I am super on top of my job, attending to every task, and being super productive, while other times I let tasks slide, deadlines pass, and basically disappear off the face of the earth.
If I thought there would be no negative repercussions for sharing this with you, I would tell you in an instant.
But I do not feel comfortable, I think there would be repercussions. My anxious brain thinks that you’d probably find a way to fire me; this illness is too much of a liability, you’d have to let me go.
I’m terrified of losing this job. What would I do if you let me go? I have skills but the idea of searching for a new job, interviewing, and starting something new causes me a great deal of anxiety. I’m not sure I’d be able to handle it.
So… please don’t fire me. Please understand that I want to do a good job, but sometimes it feels impossible to do anything, let alone my work tasks. If you’re reading this, please be compassionate. And again.. please don’t fire me.
Last modified on 2021-11-21